Ioannis I feel the pain in your words. Some hurtful things were said to you and completely inappropriate. I know my words are poor and humble but let me say them anyway. I am sorry this has happened to you.
Having said that, this agreement you mention rings true, I think I remember something to that effect but I thought it was made a little over 5 years ago. Assuming this agreement is true isn\'t your baptism valid regardless of any point made? Remember you were baptized into Christ, each church mentioned recognizes this.
In short you were not baptized into john, bob, larry, moe, curly or anyone else. But into Christ. Not into Luther, or King Jimmy, but Christ.
We weren\'t put into this life to judge you personally. What was said in the past is in the past, yes I can see it as hurtful, but now is the time to forgive. I realize that may be hard but give a little bit of past wrongs done everyday. (and no I don\'t mean to be flippant or insensitive about how you feel) Pray about it.
I know I\'ve had some nasty things done to me in my life, this isn\'t about me but I personally have found more peace in my life letting those wrongs done to me go. Hatred, anger, fear, doubt and many other things like this only serve to pull you down (and tools of the devil). Instead focus on building yourself up in Christ everyday. We do this many ways, confession, the eucharist, prayer, alms giving, and many other things.
Let go of the past, just assume the goal was to be with Christ not anyone else. The church in Orthodoxy is considered Christ\'s bride. Before you weren\'t spending time with his bride, and now you are, and that\'s what is important.
Your salvation, your faith, your justification, your deeds, your soul is up to you. It is not judged by either someone else\'s standard nor is it judged by how you were treated, or what anyone else thinks. It doesn\'t matter how much your parents or a friend or any family member knows. All that matters is God\'s opinion.
Enjoy a nice walk with your Dog, look for a little blessing God has given you every day you may not have realize or taken for granted.
But most of all know you were and are loved.
To quote St. Anthony, \"do not fear your God, instead love him.\"
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